Avril Lavigne - InnocenceFriday, August 31, 2007
Food issuesMonday, August 27, 2007have major food issues have to find out why and who and what........which is going to be difficult. I wish they would just tell me ......... y things are the way they are. i saw N today...... it was ok I see m tomarrow...the P are getting angry with how many times we see n and M ....oh well.. the saga continues... no ideaSaturday, August 25, 2007
FairiresFriday, August 24, 2007
therapy AGAIN
Dorthea againThursday, August 23, 2007
wwednesdayWednesday, August 22, 2007today has been a hard day...had art t yesterday and we just talked about what it means to be host.... Host_ For most multiples, this is the personality which most often is present and is in control of the body. This is the person who deals with daily functioning, and the system within, as a whole. Some multiples may have more several personalities that serve as their hosts. we keep telling them there is more than one the thing they are most concerned with is dealing with the system within. I need to step up to the plate and start dealing with what goes on inside. it is really hard because things are so chaotic inside. I have a great team of therapist and a lot of great friends and a hubby who is awesome....so y do I feel so horrid. who caresWednesday, August 15, 2007Any one out there who cares? I don"t anymore. Life seems so messed up these days . I feel like i can not be honest with anyone...Because it may trigger em or sumthing.. I m just gonna give up leave everything......to you all who know me you will know how I hurt so bad. So for now I go on just a little while longer. questionsTuesday, August 14, 2007what to do? having a hard time with the therapist I have. she is not that nice and has not been nice to me at all. I went away and really did not have a hard time. I kinda took all the shit inside and wrapped it up like a present and put it away........ I feel she does not like me...she did not tell me she was going away until I asked her....She is probably going away cuz she hates me. I dunno what to do these are the times I wish I could talk to Dawn...I so value her opinion....well maybe one day.I bet she is busy gettin back to school.....Mir u are a great listener too....I just don't know what to do.....sad and depressed becuz I want her to be nice to me. maybe it's just my perception? homeSunday, August 12, 2007Home from vacation......It was a lot of fun...Three days at a water park with 5 kids....however my hubby surprised me (that was the best ). however now that I am back I see the price I had to pay. Insiders are screaming....they want out they want to eat they want to be recognized...However I am still trying to keep all calm... Lili is having a hard time.. Lili we love you we r sorry you are having a hard time.....Christy and you can go to a safe place. I miss mir and I want her to know that I think about her all the time....I know u can stay clean..I am totally on ur side. EvilThursday, August 02, 2007I am afraid ...I am very afraid of all the evil inside me no one can convince me that there is no evil inside. I don't want to think about it. well I guess I get to go along for the ride again. things are getting overwhelming kids have 27 days left of school. Maybe this mini vacation will be fun. Actually I can't wait. away from the house . I am really hoping the kids will be okay. I am working a lot now for people cuz they are going on vacation.. i do not mind. I have luckily changed my hours in the fall to the mornings and if anyone has a problem with it then they can go F themselves. Have therapy today .........I guess that's all for now Mir I am glad u are having fun on vacation I missss u toooooooo....sorry i did not call u last night i fell asleep after the kids went to sleep...luv ya......out.....Hailey/Jen |
A fun place to be! Where there are many, some big some small but all with distinct personalities!