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A fun place to be! Where there are many, some big some small but all with distinct personalities!

****WELCOME TO DISSOCIATIVE IDENTITY DISORDER HELL*****

Rose petals

Sunday, November 28, 2004

HASH(0x8c0be58)
Your soul is bound to the Rose Petals: The
Wronged.
"you've come undone and all hopes of mending
me are gone because the pain took my soul.
Can't you see? The only one who can put me
back together again is me."
The Rose Petals are associated with sorrow,
reflection, and wisdom. They are governed by
the goddess Persephone and their sign is The
Teardrop, or Broken Love.
As a Rose Petal, you are always self-reflective and
may be hard on yourself. You probably have
been hurt in the past by other people and can
sometimes distance yourself, as a result. You
don't usually let other get too close to you,
but you are very good at mending your spirits
back together by yourself.

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THANKSGIVING

Thursday, November 25, 2004

HAPPY THANKSGIVING ALL......
AND REMEMBER WE STOLE THE LAND FROM THOSE WHO FED US

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CRAZINESS

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

CRAZINESS.............T SAID SHE DOES NOT WANT US TO DRIVE TODAY CUZ WE ARE SO DISSOCIATIVE...WE CAN ALWAYS DRIVE THO WHAT THE HELL IS SHE TALKING ABOUT..I AM SO PISSED RIGHT NOW..NO ONE I MEAN NO ONE WILL TELL ME WHAT I CAN AND CAN'T DO..........I AM GOING TO PROVE I CAN DRIVE AND DRIVE BACK. WE MAY BE DISSOCIATIVE BUT WE CAN ALWAYS DRIVE.. AHHHHHHH

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Friday, November 19, 2004

I am so tired today I can't believe how tired I am... I guess thats what hapenes when you are up all night with a baby throwing up....I also had nightmares, I kept having the same dream even when I would get up with the baby. I would go back to sleep and be right back in the dream..it was so vivid. I WAS SO AFRAID. I HAVE NOT BEEN THIS AFRAID IN A LONG TIME. I WAS AN ADULT AND WATCHED MY HUSBAND AND MY CHILDREN DIE, BY HORRIFIC DEATHS IT WAS TERRIBLE. As I awaited the killer trying to come find me....There was no where to hide. I was so frighten. I am having a hard time typing right now. I feel very spacey and drugged. Yuck I hate feeling this way. damn this is so bad the room starts to spin... This is my life The damn flashbacks and memories especially body memories.

Oh well life will hopefully get better.............................................................................SOMEDAY

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great quote ...

Friday, November 12, 2004

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take - but by the moments that take our breath away."

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A GREAT NEW CHAT ROOM

A great DID chat room and message board ..

OUR FAMILY FUN ROOM....

(see the link to the left)

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little lili n candy

hihi it is lili n candy we wanned to say we r not happi.cuz we hav to sta insid today. Fir n ice r not bein nic so we wan to get out. HEHEHHE they laff at us.they is being really meen to us they hurt the littles insid. we get out n run away today

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a poem by char

Thursday, November 11, 2004

MY SOUL

I loved you

you did not care

you took my heart

and left it there

the anger I feel

Can't be compared

with the sadness

thats not part of the deal

the trust I gave

is so destroyed

I have nothing left to save

Crimson and scarlet run

trying to stop the pain

my life is done

I am going insane

life passes by so fast

spinning out of control

death is last

you stole my soul

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unicorns

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

a guardien Unicorn! All guardien Unicorns are
very powerful and loyal, but they dont like to
get caught up in human things, such as love or
friendship. They guard all sorts of things or
people, such as forests, animals, royalty,
shrines, the heavans. Guradien Unicorns are
kind and proud and their horn can be crafted
into an unbreakable sword. But you'll go
through hell to get one...

What kind of Unicorn are you? (With beautiful pictures)
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faires

Take the quiz: What kind of fairie are you ?(girlz only)"

You are a artistic fairie !
you are very creative in every way you use every color to make your world beautiful .

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Girl Indigo

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

Girl Indigo

Shattered glass sparkles
through a broken window
refracting reflectionsinto back
lit hallways deep, deep inside,
flashing strophic light, then dark.
A figure, a shape moves
into and out of shadow a child,
a woman reverberates in silhouette.

Broken nail, broken heart
her hair, dyed jet black,
fades in heart beats and tears.
She is here, she is now screaming forever
Dimensionless and expanding
beyond the edge of visible light
she hovers in her own luminescence
untouchable, yet yearning an embrace

Beyond a grasp, colors fail
pastels wither and crimsons bleed
into neutral shades of gray
as she absorbs the sun
into her deepest indigo.

by James M. Thompson

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this is so me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Take the quiz: ">What kind of eyes do you have?"

Scared
Your eyes are scared. Your eyes are scared of pain, or rejection. You know how much it hurts to lose someone u cared for, but in return they dumped you like a sack of potatoes! Someday you will find your special friend, or lover, so dont stay hidden too much. You have also seen much misery when it comes to guy too, so you pefer to keep it safe, and keep your heart locked up from everyone guy that seems to be interested. You dont wanna go through anymore pain....

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LOL sex quiz I took...Char

Your Sex Sign is Aries!You're fiery, independent, and the best anyone's ever had.You're so hot that you drive everyone wild with sexual frustration.You're a total star when you're on top, but you also need to be impressed in bed.Aries, you are headstrong, spolied, fiery in temperment, and fiercely independent.You always want to be the best anyone's ever had, and you'll spend all night convincing your lover that you are.Don't worry - you usually are the best anyone has ever had.When you get down, you don't leave out anything.Sexually, you're a leader and very sure of yourself.One of your favorite positions is being on top, where you can move freely - while letting your lover observe you orgasm.Sex with you is always exciting.You start with teasing, playful seduction - that always drives your lovers wild with frustration.You always deliver though!You love being over powered, and you respond to a strong sexual appetite with equal fervor.The confident lover who can give you breathtaking, powerful sex will have you eating out of his or her hand.

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Trusting a fool

Sunday, November 07, 2004

I thought I could trust you

But I was wrong

You took me for a fool

and stepped on my heart too

my heart sang a song

of love and kindness

yours sang one of betrayal

my life felt like it was over

but I continue on...

With a different perspective

That love is not worth it...I guess

Char 11-7-04

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Wednesday, November 03, 2004

I hope everyone Voted...It is the AMERICAN WAY.............SANDY
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Neopets yeahhhh

Jack And Lili finally found something to do On the Internet......neopets!!!!!!! It is so awesome..They play different games and stuff ..Lili takes care of their neopet..Which Jack named protectormad mad...Considering jack was really angry at the time. Hopefullty we will get to post a picture of him soon...It gives the kids something to do that does not remind them of the horrors... Jack is learning to use hisanger in amore productive way..However it is a long road...We can still feel jack's rage a lot and it makes us want to run away...Playing the games o neopets has helped Jack to get rid of his anger. T said we need to journal about why we r angry tho..Jack does not like that idea at all .

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Monday, November 01, 2004

Indigo reaches for something in the hands of FIRE..These hands hold all the answers and all the revelations.........be prepared for chaos the storm is just starting
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