Ok I am finally back.....Feeling so much better...Life is worth living again It is not as crazy as it was. I seem to be able to handle things a little better now. I still have difficultly with C and her occupational therapy, but something I am going to work on. I do not feel like I want to die every moment of the day. That is good. We are working more as a team on the inside. Which feels so different. The kids are freaking out right now. Anxiety goes way up. Wow I guess I am not as ok as I thought. I can't handle K screaming and yelling.. so someone else comes out and is as patient as can be, she does not yell.. wow i was co-conscious..but it was so scary. I feel ungrounded..keep typing.... She sent K to her room for a time out..and says there is consequeces for her behavior..wow a mom a real mom takes care of these kids. Someone who is stong and consistent but loving and caring..I guess co consciousness is the way to go. Even tho it was scary and I am not even sure who popped out...Leah I hear. Ok things really have changed inside. I am really surprised. well I am glad to be home and hope things continue to be ok...Jen

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