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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

I am so sad today...I can not stop crying..I am not sure if it is medication related or not......I know I just feel like crap all day...I look lIke crap I am crap. I was sick over the weekend and feeling like I was not allowed to be sick. Who thinks these crazy things? Me of course...I am certifiably crazy I think. My house iS a mess My life is a mess My world feels like is is crumbling .

The things that used to keep me grounded are not working. My children are so important to me but they say dont like me and that I am mean..I guess when u try to set limits thats what happens. I feel like a failure tho. A failure at life. Sadness fills the room and my head...I wish I could just go to bed....
scribbled Gatekeepers4@ 1:30 PM

1 Comments:

At 11:51 PM, ShatteredInSilence said…

If it counts (and it better hehehe)...I like you (whether yer "mean" or not hehehe). Dun worry, yer kids love u or they wouldn't hang all over u like they do so much.

When everything's a mess inside and out it's hard to see anything good...i can so relate to that...as Dory says in Finding Nemo...

"Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, swimming swimming..."

I guess we just gotta keep swimming...one second at a time if we must.

Love yer guts!