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somataform disorders

Tuesday, August 24, 2004

I swear I am suffering from some fucked up psychological brain fart... Or as some proffesionals would call it a somataform disorder. Damn my whole body hurts. I have pain in my abdomen and in my back and there is not a thing wong with me. Except a bit of insanity. But then again thats ok... I can take drugs for that. Back to this fake pain. My therapist says maybe they are body memories... well someone needs to tell my fucking body to forget cuz it hurts. I passed out the other day. Fell on the floor..BANG!!!!!!!!!! dang did I feel terrible...Dizzy, spinning and such. If I did not think I was totally crazy before I do now.

Speaking of therapy.I don't think I am going It is so crazy making. It takes the whole week to get my self together again get all setteled back into denial......Then the fuckin shit starts all over again. Would you go back? I do not think so. Yet sometimes things fall apart then we have to crawl back on our hands and knees. Because we don't have the skills to successfully manage all the crap that happens after a therapy hour. CHAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

scribbled Gatekeepers4@ 3:49 PM

4 Comments:

At 9:43 PM, Rocktaxi said…

Char - I know you hate me, but I have to tell you that I got a good laugh out of the "fucked up psychological brain fart".... I think that sums it all up quite perfectly....

Sounds like a happy bunny sign... I'm not crazy... I'm just having a fucked up psychological brain fart!
At 11:27 AM, Gatekeepers4 said…

what is wrong with my fuckin music?yo
At 11:41 AM, Rocktaxi said…

Watch the language!!!
And how did she know you're Louise??? You holding out on me??? LOL
At 6:35 PM, Anonymous said…

Can you say hypochondriac?