EmotionsMonday, June 14, 2004Throughout the day we have experienced a ton of different emotions from sadness to rage. I hate having all these dumb emotions and I mean they are dumb. They serve no purpose to me except anxiety and they make me wanna run away.. I have no idea why so I try to numb out ..Many different ways to do that unfortunately they are not the best. I am not so good at expressing my emotions just writing this is making me feel really crazy and overwhelmed so I am going to go for now. Taking baby steps is the only way I am going to be able to do this because I can't handle it any other way. I always feel like I am going to die when I feel any kind of emotions. It really sucks and probably sounds so stupid.....The castle staff......I feel like writing but I dont want anyone to know so I am writing in an old post what afuckin chicken way out but I am so angry right now at the whole world That i want to be dead and i dont really want anyone to read this so I thought I'd embed it in this post so maybe someone will not find it and they'd think it was writing a long time ago when in reality it is written today I can't believe how angry I am right now at everyone I have not answered my phone at all it became filled with messages LOL..Well it really is not funny cuz I am really angry i could spit ..at myself I wanna curl up in a ball and dissapear. I dont want anyone to see me .i dont want to exist anymore but thats not gonna happen |
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